Mental ramblings

I seem to be cycling faster now for some reason..
This morning i was depressed and now I think i'm manic b/c I'm not even tired and its after 5 am.. my mind is starting to race, i have other things on my mind but i feel like i can't share them with everyone thats not for here, i will not post that here. I will not bore u with my life or excite u with it... whatever is whatever....
Theres this man on TV he looks Gay as a 3 fuckin dollar bill *LOL* but he looks like he is tryin' to play it off, but i have very good gaydar and its beeping loudly! *LOL*
damn infomericals, thats all thats on, on a sunday mornin' around 5ish. hmm, if i was catholic i would go to early morning mass but i'm not catholic. and neither do i have any desire to be catholic. so why are we discussing this? oh yeah cuz i stupidly brought it up haha.
My cousin told me its pyscotic and mental of me to write my feelings down in a blog for the whole world to read..fuck him! I love doing this, i love sharing myself with everyone *teehee* he should know thats how i've always been...i do love him. i do...sometimes i feel like the only reason he comes over is to get on my computer tho. and talk to strange men....yeah i know your gaydar is going off now..*lol*
but for real....
I love doing this and i'm not going to stop b/c my Brother/bestfriend/cousin says its mental. I know i'm mental..I don't need to be told that *LOL*

and I wanna be myself, and nobody else...;)